Am I crazy?

So last year for some reason I got on a kick of conquering fears. Maybe it is because of after having two kids I felt the need to be motivated towards something. It seems I am taking one extreme to the next. Let's run through last year.
So I had not ridden a bike for years. In fact I don't even know if owning a bike for one year at the age of 8 even counts. Especially if I hardly rode it.
Where we live we see bikers everyday. I think that is what gave me the thought, "I want a bike". So I got my bike and Matt kept getting on my case about riding it. I was extremely nervous. When i finally rode the bike, Matt laughed and then he got mad. It was then he realized I was telling the truth about not really ever riding a bike. He was not too happy about putting so much money towards a nice rode bike. I had to prove him wrong. With the help of my extreme friend she talked me into taking one of my first rides on a up hill ride. For those of you familiar with Suncrest in Draper Ut. My first ride took place on the Utah county side of that hill. I almost killed myself. When we rode down the hill I almost killed myself for a second time. I made it though and then developed a love for biking. In fact before the weather got real bad I took my bike on the other side of the hill. This is the South Mountain side and I don't believe I remember any flat spots. I just remember it being a lot more steeper then the other side. That was the only time I made that ride. It was a killer. So I accomplished my fear of riding a bike and speeding down a steep hill.
My other fear has always been water. Some of my favorite sports are the water sports. This does not mean I can swim and am not scared. I hate putting my face under water. If you dunk me, I WILL slap you. I hate not being able to breath. The thought of drowning terrifies me. I have always been fine if I had a life jacket on. In all honestly I sucked at swimming because I never swam. Because I took on biking I decided I can now take on swimming. This was a 3 month struggle. Seriously it was. There were days I would totally freak myself out and have to get our of the water. I just couldn't breath. Well I didn't give up and now I actually can swim laps. Last year I swam 1 mile without stopping. For all of you who are swimmers, I know that is easy, for me it was an accomplishment.
To end my year off with a bang I entered my first Triathlon. It was just a sprint, but it took a lot of work and energy. I like to think it took even more energy then usual since it was done outside in October in the rain. Not sprinkling rain, this was a ton of rain. I looked like a sewer rat when I was done and my legs were frozen. But it was awesome.
So this year I am off looking for a new triathlon and maybe a half marathon.
Well, don't think I am going through the year without conquering yet another fear. So how is this, scuba diving. Talk about just learning to swim last year. What am I thinking. I also tend to think I am clostephobic (a word I can;t even spell) so this can't be good. I have done snorkeling and It took me a while to adjust. I wanted to freak out but I didn't. So I am wondering if that makes this scuba diving thing a bad idea? Probably, but I am a bit competitive and Matt said if I don't do it, he will still do it without me.
We will have our first dive in a pool on Saturday. I will tell you how it goes. If I make it out alive that is. I realize it is a pool. That is basically a kiddie pool compared to the ocean. Oh wait, that is more like a Barbi size pool meant for toy dolls compared to the ocean. After all the certification is over we will be using a great scuba skills when we go on a cruise next month. Please don't scare me with your comments of near death experiences while scuba diving. That will not help this situation. It will probably put me in a worse situation because I am going to scuba now, we paid a butt load, and I really don't want to be thinking of those scary experiences while I am 60 feet below in the ocean. Encouragement only please or just comment on some random thought.
Well I hope you enjoyed my crazy rambling of thoughts.!

Tate is 4!

I got very courageous when I added this picture. Especially since I have no makeup. What was I thinking?

I cannot believe how fast time flies. It is just crazy. I remember how frightened I was be a mother. I had no clue what to do with a baby. Pregnancy, I had no worries. It was when the baby was turned over to me that concerned me.
Four years later here I am with two kids I am chasing around. I am happy to say I love it and I can see the change a child brings into a persons life. To be a mother is such a rewarding blessing. It has given me opportunity to grow in ways I wouldn't be able to learn and grow otherwise. As for Tate, I could never imagine life without him. He loves having fun and is always trying to make people laugh. There are times when he tries to be funny and it just isn't funny, but I appreciate how he loves to laugh. He loves to make matt and I happy and is always concerned of he makes us mad or sad. He has so much sympathy towards people, animals and his action hero toys (lol)! I love Tate and I am so glad he broke me in to motherhood.
I hate to see him grow so fast, but look forward to the many years ahead and all the many more lessons he will teach me. Even though I feel a lot of motherhood's lessons have already involved "Patience", I have a feeling there is more lessons on patience to come. Tate will always be my precious baby boy and I love him so much.
So we went to Chucky Cheese yesterday with Tates little friend Ellie. Last minute we had to do something becuase he was so excited to turn 4. They are best buds. Well i will post pics of that event later. We also have birthday bash on Sat. with Tate's cousins. After last years mega car Birthday we decided to take it easy this year. I am even buying a cake. I am actually a little bummed because I always love the challenge. Although we still will have a theme, "Spiderman" of course!
Happy Birthday Yesterday!